Inklings

A Very Loved Person (A.V.L.P.) told me this. 'In order to learn to love someone else, One needs to love his family.' and hence I am starting to learn after so many years. For a dude, loving his father his old man is gay. Although I do appreciate the things that he has done. Some things are just better left untouched. Especially the phobias of sharing a similar room with him for 5 years (when i was 14-19). He's a workaholic and like a typical Chinese, he loves his money and he works hard for it. Too hard. He tries his best to support my studies overseas to the extent that he still works despite of his health. Am I going to say thank you cos of that? Yes maybe, I shall be the grateful son and work hard and repay him. I am also going to tell him. Don't be stupid. You are only going to waste more on medical bills. Very soon extra medical bills will exceed the extra hours that he's put in. I am going to ask him. Is it really worth it? (Diss me all you want) My dad has a image of a dad to uphold but he's really stupid in a way. But I try to communicate with him as nicely as possible.

One person in my family I would like to say I am proud of is my sister. I rarely say this but here I am writing in my blog (which i doubt she will read). With the recent passing of my grandmother and the detoriation of my parents health, my sister has changed from being a rebellious teenager to being a very parent-orientated child. Often MSNing me telling me that she's worried about mum or dad having scans the next day. She worries me. Or rather she makes me feel worried about my parents. So right now she has a full time job. And when my dad told me that I could feel that he's pleased that his daughter is finally earning a stable income rather than a casual work. Which leads me to my life question. Where am I? I am nowhere near that ability/status.

Just talking with my sister today lead me to some worries on my aunties / cousins. Well they are concerns. They are very typical Singaporeans. Throughout this decade, my grandma has kept her family together. (Note: her family, or rather this is what my sister thinks). I find my aunties very kiasu. But they are who they are. They do care about my well-being, however its the little issues that worries me. They would compare their kids educational levels and salary (yes, my generation is slowly moving into the working force). And if educational levels doesn't match with salary, there will be bickerings of jealousy. Such is a reason why my sister doesn't want to reveal the true amount of her salary. It's really absurd. Like people giving ang pao money, and then the kids having parents asking them how much the other party give to them so that they would return the similar amount to their kids. What happened to good giving? After being saved, I reaslied giving is out of relationship. I realised. When I love someone, I feel happy giving. 'God loves a cheerful giver' and be it in other stuff for example buying presents or treating the person I adore for lunch / dinner. This is just not happening here. Should I pray for them? Yes defintely.

I also believe that there has been a general shift within me. Since going to church and going to urban life and OCF, I feel alot calmer and I also cut down my 'shortlist' severely. I would like to believe that I have stopped clubbing. Because I have not been there since the end of last semester (as a DJ). Although my love for electronic dance music still remains. So much so that I find myself heading for an OCF convention camp in Adelaide at the end of the month to early December. I will be gone during those period of time. So try very hard to contact me.

Recently, I have also been on a emotional rollercoaster ride in regards to relationship however I will keep it very brief and not so personal (since I have learnt my lesson). The person whom i fancy currently is an absolute woman of God. God has blessed her with wonderful abundance of gifts and abilities and with that she uses it to encounter people and ushers them into the kingdom of the Lord. She faces her own hurdles too, I would often like to help her out, but she's brave and she will succeed in doing that herself by God's grace. Sometimes I do pray whether this amazing woman of God is the one. Because she basically stopped my entire vicious cycle. But if she's not the one lest cast her away. Even though i say that. I still feel alot for her. But if things will happen between us, it will. I will be there to see it happen whether it does happen ornot.

Incidentally, my accomdation probelms (or recently lack of) has taken a new twist. Due to some newly arisen problems, I would like to announce that I am looking for new accomdations. Or rather, I am open to new accommation suggestions. Simply because my place just isn't my place anymore. Sure enough a very friendly neighbor just moved in, but i just feel my sactuary being disturbed. I love my personal space (and A.V.L.P. will have hers too, i promise) and sometimes in my past relationship that personal space gets invaded. I couldn't do alot of things myself like catch up on my favorite tv series or just play nhl or DJ and listen to the hottest songs that are out. Ok I will not digress, in short. After financially reviewing what is left in my bank account. I feel that its advisable for me to relocate. Problem: I still have 6 months left on my bond. Which I don;t think I wil have much problems breaking it. Since my property is oh so hot. I was thinking of moving in with Hoxy and her suitor and another of her church friend. But she's a lil mulling over that matter. So I was told that she was a private person but it just turned out that we were talking about accommadation so whamp. See how. She finishes her exams soon so she's going to look for house full force. I just hope I am under considerations. Prays. I need a change of environment.

E-Night Report

E-Night went well. I can't say it was an absolute success, each theatre has their own fair share of mistakes. It was the first time I was placed in charge of organising the technical krew. I think I did a below average job. However I guess things turned out OK. The supportive mics and shotgun mics were barely working. There were feedbacks occouring throughout the system. I was overrawwed with the Allen & Heath PA mixer, and I cranked the FOH a couple of times during setup. I was a nervous wreck. I was my usual stressed self before an event. I was too caught up in the technikalities. I was away from Him. I prayed. Things turned to be better during the play. Hoxy should have received a bunch of flowers from me. I have tons of thanks to say to her. She was the calming influence. On the side, Lights also went relatively well and adapted well to the last minute changes to the program. The Projector team did surprisingly well considering the equipment that was used. The whole team had supper @ chappelis on Chapel St. However our team's work is far from done. Now we will proceed with the documentary of the film.


I think I have fallen in love with Hoxy's Epilogue playlist. It is calming and EMO. quite fitting for the mood I am in at the moment. It represents a good variety of worship songs as well which I could help myself to since they are kinda rare.


Why am I emo? Thats because I started going out with someone however I realised I had to end it. Because I realised my feelings were somewhere else. Oh well. Back to singlehood. Which maybe explains my sudden compulsion to blog.

I am heading out with my cell group for some deep sea fishing tomorrow and (yet another) post E-Night celebration BBQ. Maybe I will blog more often and more personal than compared with what I have decided after all.

Releases. {Edited}

This fortnight has been a fortnight of releases in all aspects. Firstly to have some continuity from the previous post. I completed the assignment a day before my original dateline just to stick it up his bunny tooth that I didn't need that extra day off. A few days ago, I also released my girlfriend back into the society for the taking. Yes it's a weird way to put it i know. We had our fair share of out problems and we both thought it would be the best. So ladies, I am up for grabs again. Please try your best. =). 2 weeks, 2 releases. Music Mixes. I apologize for not posting a blog last week as I was keeping myself busy with a mid semester test which I was late because I overslept. =.=. I was kind of disappointed with me not waking up when my alarm went off. Maybe I heard it and i just unconsciously turned it off. I have a feeling I have a Mr. Hyde inside me. Because somebody turned the alarm off and i certainly didn't remember doing it! (I had like 5 / 20 for a 20% test) how well is that! and now i have to get 10/10 for the rest of my labs in order to pass. (better finish up those optional questions >.<)

E Playlist 6
1.Amy Winehouse - Tears Dry On Their Own (Alix Alvarez Sole Channel Mix)
2.Chocalate - Ritmo De La Noche 2007 (Latin House Mix)
3.Tribalishious - Underground Sound (Tribalishious Chant Mix)
Dmitrij Filatov - Esche Odin Den' (Aurosonic Remix)
4.Hoxton Whores, Gavin Lampitt - Fusion (Hoxton Whores Remix)
5.Cerf Mitiska and Jaren - Saved Again (Oringal Mix)
6.Gabriel & Dresden - Tracking Treasure Down (KYau & Albert Mix)
7.ATB with Heather Nova - Renegade (Ronski Speed Remix)
8.Paul Maddox Pres. Olive Grooves - Feeling 94 (Flash Harry Remix)
The Beach and Tia - Suntan (Accapella)
9.Massive Djs - Calling Your Name (P.h.a.t.t. Remix)

To Listen:





Luck-E Playlist 7
01.Secret Stealth - Hooked On You
02.Aris and Allis - Volume 11 (Original Mix)
03.X-Rate - How Do You Like Your Sex (Antoine v.s. Mad Mark Straight Remix)
04.Booty Luv - Boogie 2nite (Carloss Da Silva Remix)
05.Ninelives the Cat- Dog Food (Santos Pool Pet Remix)
06.Dada feat. Sandy Rivera - Lollipop (The Drill Remix)
07.Woody B feat. Brent St. Clair - Holdin On (Club Mix)
08.Monako - Saxo Anthem (Extended Vocal Mix)
09.No Tone feat. Inusa - Life is Love (Nerios Dub Worm Mix)
10.Bob Sinclar feat. Steve Edwards and Pitbull - World Hold On (Children of the Sky)
11.Liz Kay - Castles in the Sky (Sunset Crew Mix)

To Listen:




I will edit this post about more recent issues. But right now, I have to rush to prepare my labs.

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Edit:
It's been awhile. I would like to start up by advertising an event in which I will be DJing at.

If the fonts are too small for you in the picture. You can click on the picture and a enlarged version will pop out. =) I will be using the Serato Scratch System to DJ for this ball. It will be really fun. My first attempt to dip into the Digital DJ era!


It will be a fun event! Lotsa pictures will be taken. (A rare occasion to catch me in my PJs! It's frankly my first major club activity after 2 years of studying in Monash University. Haha. I would like to give credits to Melissa for asking me to do this job. I needed the promo badly! =P Recent weeks have seen people moving from Friendster to Facebook as "Facebook is the fad now wad" ~ Toy-kia. Haha. I loved the way she puts it. I should also thank Kelly Miyuki for being my first friend on Facebook! It's an honour! Haha. I have recently set up this To Be Prowled list. To See who should I prowl on this summer. =) Don't worry ladies, it's only down to one. I am not giving out any clues. =P. O and talking about Facebook, I have set up a group under my name. So that I could promote to my friends my DJ Sets as well. Haha, I needed to create the inner circle first yeah? O and I had my first 'fan mail' on Facebook! How wicked is that! It turns out to be my DJ Buddy's friend hahahha. Poor Wayne, did she send you a mail? =P



My DJ buddy (DJ Mystikal) from Sydney has extended his hands to invite me to DJ @ a possible underground party in Sydney somewhere in March, details are still being finalised. Readers living in Sydney who's interesting in finding out who's he can head down to 'One Home Club' near the Darling Harbour. Sydney Here I Come! RAWR!



Meanwhile to show gradtitude, I will be linking his latest mix, 'Spring Trance Mix 2007' it's available for download by clicking at the link. Check it out!